“Our Lives & Pasts …”


etcetera … etcetera … etcetera

At Keele 1954, I
(this now author-publisher)
having taken too many Dexedrines 
[to overnight write my first English essay,
on Wordsworth’s “Intimations of Immortality,
for Lecturer Mr Lloyd’s small study group)
but been ‘plunged’ into
a frightening drop in personal-energy, self-confidence,
and in some “mind-function(s) shutdowns”;
I became wrongly diagnosed and iatrogenically treated. 

Then from an ensuing Moorhaven Plymouth ‘mental-hospital’
needing to ‘conscience-ly’ resign my grant & place some two years later,
I had both endured and enjoyed a “second” checkered-career
(the first being up to the age of 26,
including finishing
my Sandhurst-trained regular army officer’s minimum time,
and a year broadcasting on Radio Malaya)
until now when I seem to be again
both enjoying and enduring
a ‘final-sea-change’ in my lifestyling. 

Although I failed to survive even the first month
of the 4-year course at Keele,
memories of it,
and of other places and times,
keep on accompanying me. 

One such is ‘suddenly’ now 
that Keele University motto
Gnothi Heouton” – “Know Thyself“… 
[for a little Other and Offline sustainworthy-ing
I voluntarily-altruisticly run a nonfiction e-site 
in which I show advances in Human Development
that are being avoided & repressed 
‘notably’ by Dweck, Jencks, Feldenkrais,
Hartley (Wisdom of the Body Moving), Forencich,

Powers {Perceptual Self-Control) –
which could/should replace Reinforcement Theory),  

Todd (The Thinking Body) 1937
and a literally ‘formidable’ list of Others. 

The ‘point’ of all this is … 
that Keele’s motto
“Know Thyself”
is something of a “trap” -:
in the down-on-the-ground, actual-living-of-life,
 it has the sense of
[and thereunder the “string-of-more-words ‘meaning’ “] 
 (“) Know Your Worst-Weaknesses
as well as Your Outstanding-Strengths (“)